1 post tagged “going to hell”
So I was talking to my father the other day when he told me I was going to hell...Lovely man isnt he? All I said was that everyone was entitled to believe in what ever they want, to be free to make there own choices, and that I wasn't going to judge someone just because they where gay or a different race or anything like that. So my father sneered at me and said...and I quote "You should't speak to me like that! I am your father and if I say for you to jump you are to do what I say, I don't care how old you are. You should repent to God, even though its to late for you. You will be in hell for the way you think" I was suprised that my father would go that far, not overly suprised, but surprised non the less. So my father is a sexist, biggitist,racist and facist. I will still go to church and worship God, but I will not take part in praying near my father, if I am talking about church,God, women or anthing of the like I will stop talking when he enters the room. My mother told him that he had gone to far, that he was beging to push me away. My fathers response was that he didnt care that he was my father and that I should think the way he thinks. My mother smaked him, and I laughed. My father is not a violent man but he can break your soul and heart with words. He has always been like that really. He went from being a gambler to being a control freak about everything else...I hate to say it but I dont like him at all.
My mother told me to forgive and forget, I told my mother no. After all I have turned the other cheek to many times to count and I will not turn the cheek again. Trying to talk in my family is hard enough, breaking down and not speaking about what the conversation is about means that I hardly talk to my family at all now. Sad, but true.. Unfortunatley I made the promise of going to my parents church this comming Sunday...now I am dreading it....I think I will find a new church and start going there instead. I do not like our current church, ther snobbish and cruel...also completly white excluding my family. We are all American Indian, well at least half. My father is a very dark man, so is my brother but my sister, mom and I are all lighter then those two. lol...we look wierd. We have alot of spanish friends and hang around with them so the natural assumption is that we are mexican or cuban...nope! I dont know a word of spanish. I know some french and Italian. and even a little Chinease but no mexican.
But I am off subject....So it appears that I am going to hell....Ok then...If I am already destined to go to hell, then my father must be on there mvp list.lol....I am 23 still a virgin, I dont believe is sex before marriage, I dont drink or do drugs, and I have never been in trouble with the police or Government. If I am going to hell though it would stand to reason that I should just go crazy and break every rule I can get my hands on to does it not?But I wont...my mother raised me to damn well. It dosnt mean I wont cuss, or anything It just means that I will be more loose with the rules then I used to be....after all if I am going to hell, might as well do something to deserve being there in the first place huh?
